Post by AutumnGrace on Jul 10, 2018 14:34:22 GMT -5
Ok I have been through a few emotional darts today. I keep ducking.
One son #3, lied to me about why he is not helping his dad. I let him & did not correct him. he is his own worst enemy. he messes up and makes a bad choice then he falls into depression.
son #2 was to be sentenced today for a crime he plead guilty to and then changed his plea to not guilty and his lawyer says its an unwinnable case, he will lose & get life.
My moving experience is not going as planned & concern for my husband stretching himself without help.
More simple family things are tossed at me in weeks past and lay in the back of my head about my children & grand children.
Sigh... stress stress stress.. I gain weight with stresss! I eat less, I work more, but still the stress rolls into weight gain. What is wrong with this picture!!!
I have a revelation that is not good about me. I want to fix things my way. I have suggestions on what would make it all better for my sons , my husband, my family and myself.
EXAMPLE:
When I heard the news about son #2 and I did not cry, I didn't fuss, I simply said alright with my mind & accepted the news, And it rolled off my head onto my body and stress will cling there! I do not recognize that I am stressed about it. In my mind I have said alright! This is how I react to the whole gambit of things going on in my life. "alright". I accept it all. I even accept that I am not able to paint or work on my book right now. Adding to the mix of darts that are flying around in my life. It is what it is...
PROBLEM IS: I have become an ALRIGHT CHRISTIAN... God allows something and I say "alright" God had a plan, and I say "alright". Its different than my plan But that's "alright". He is God!
CORRECTION IS: I am not a YES CHRISTIAN.... your son isn't going to help his father today... YES GOD, You have a different plan. YES! My son #2 is going away without any chance of parole, for life... YES GOD … You have a plan for him... to save him and use him maybe. It will be the best choice for him to serve you and come to know You, You know what will work... YES GOD! YES! Your granddaughter is pregnant at 15... YES GOD... only You give life and You have a plan for her life. You know what wil bring her to You. It is my prayers in action... YES GOD...YES. ETC. ETC. ETC. It is time I get excited about what God is doing in my families lives... in my life... I need to live each moment with expectancy to see what He is doing. what is He creating out of this garbage heap! HE REALLY DOES HAVE A PLAN!
I no longer want to be a silent defiant with an "alright" attitude. I want to have a "YES GOD" attitude.
Then I think of my thin husband and how he does not carry stress my way. I say "I cannot get a hold of our son, who was suppose to be here to help you today." I generally am stressed about it.... He says OK and does not even give it a second thought. … He proceeds to work on taking down the chimney alone and excited to do so.... My Jim is more of a YES CHRISTIAN than I am. His attitude is right. mine is silent defiant "I guess".. "Alright" ("whatever" would be how it feels sometimes, but not generally)
Now I see where change needs to come, forgive me Lord for not welcoming Your handiwork thinking I want another choice to how it is going to play out. I am not God and do not know the right ways for my prayers to be answered. But You do, surrendering my attitude today to be changed into a yes attitude. Thank You for showing me my error of my ways. I want to be in full agreement with Your plans. In Jesus Name Amen
How are you doing with your attitudes? are you a YES CHRISTIAN or do you fall less like me. Praying we all get YES GOD into our spirits and are letting go of our personal suggestions to God. He can be Trusted.
One son #3, lied to me about why he is not helping his dad. I let him & did not correct him. he is his own worst enemy. he messes up and makes a bad choice then he falls into depression.
son #2 was to be sentenced today for a crime he plead guilty to and then changed his plea to not guilty and his lawyer says its an unwinnable case, he will lose & get life.
My moving experience is not going as planned & concern for my husband stretching himself without help.
More simple family things are tossed at me in weeks past and lay in the back of my head about my children & grand children.
Sigh... stress stress stress.. I gain weight with stresss! I eat less, I work more, but still the stress rolls into weight gain. What is wrong with this picture!!!
I have a revelation that is not good about me. I want to fix things my way. I have suggestions on what would make it all better for my sons , my husband, my family and myself.
EXAMPLE:
When I heard the news about son #2 and I did not cry, I didn't fuss, I simply said alright with my mind & accepted the news, And it rolled off my head onto my body and stress will cling there! I do not recognize that I am stressed about it. In my mind I have said alright! This is how I react to the whole gambit of things going on in my life. "alright". I accept it all. I even accept that I am not able to paint or work on my book right now. Adding to the mix of darts that are flying around in my life. It is what it is...
PROBLEM IS: I have become an ALRIGHT CHRISTIAN... God allows something and I say "alright" God had a plan, and I say "alright". Its different than my plan But that's "alright". He is God!
CORRECTION IS: I am not a YES CHRISTIAN.... your son isn't going to help his father today... YES GOD, You have a different plan. YES! My son #2 is going away without any chance of parole, for life... YES GOD … You have a plan for him... to save him and use him maybe. It will be the best choice for him to serve you and come to know You, You know what will work... YES GOD! YES! Your granddaughter is pregnant at 15... YES GOD... only You give life and You have a plan for her life. You know what wil bring her to You. It is my prayers in action... YES GOD...YES. ETC. ETC. ETC. It is time I get excited about what God is doing in my families lives... in my life... I need to live each moment with expectancy to see what He is doing. what is He creating out of this garbage heap! HE REALLY DOES HAVE A PLAN!
I no longer want to be a silent defiant with an "alright" attitude. I want to have a "YES GOD" attitude.
Then I think of my thin husband and how he does not carry stress my way. I say "I cannot get a hold of our son, who was suppose to be here to help you today." I generally am stressed about it.... He says OK and does not even give it a second thought. … He proceeds to work on taking down the chimney alone and excited to do so.... My Jim is more of a YES CHRISTIAN than I am. His attitude is right. mine is silent defiant "I guess".. "Alright" ("whatever" would be how it feels sometimes, but not generally)
Now I see where change needs to come, forgive me Lord for not welcoming Your handiwork thinking I want another choice to how it is going to play out. I am not God and do not know the right ways for my prayers to be answered. But You do, surrendering my attitude today to be changed into a yes attitude. Thank You for showing me my error of my ways. I want to be in full agreement with Your plans. In Jesus Name Amen
How are you doing with your attitudes? are you a YES CHRISTIAN or do you fall less like me. Praying we all get YES GOD into our spirits and are letting go of our personal suggestions to God. He can be Trusted.
